Friday, April 29, 2005

♥if i ain't gotcha!♥

Some people live for the fortune
some people live for just for the fame
some people live for the power
some people live just to play the game

some people think that the physical things define
what's within and i bet that before that life's adore are
full of the superficialSome people want it all
but i don't want nothing all

if it ain't you baby,
if i ain't got you baby

some people want diamond rings
some just want everything
but everything means nothing
if i ain't got you

some people search for a fountain
promises are forever yours
some people need the dozen roses
that's the only way you proveyou love them
hand me the worldon a silver platter
then what a what good it would be
no one to share
no one who truly cares for me
naipa and i
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Thursday, April 28, 2005

♥initial d!!!♥

i made this car figurine out of styrofoam! and it's my pressie for dada! isn't it pretty? i think dada will surely be very happy when he sees it later! yippee!! i'm so in lub!! booo...i'm getting fat. it must be the fucking exams! now that they're over, it's time to pull myself together and get back in shape again. ALRIGHT! *thunder thunder* i shall start an all veggies and fruits diet (unless special occasions) hehehee.. oh man.. i miss my dumbo mokie. where is he?! *bangs wall* i wanna present him with his new car figurine!!! fwahahhahaa!!!!

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♥i'll be able to go tanning with sindy dear tomorrow!!♥

i'm in hall now. well, back to accompany mok shaowei. a lil dumb right? but ahem.. nvm lar. *yippees* both their exams will end tomorrow! tomorrow is the BIG DAY!! kekeke.. i bough styrofoam yesterday! and i'm gg to make mokie a car figurine!! with my artistic talents, it shouldn't be too much of a problem! haha!! happy happy! i miss sindy and fanny so much! we've just arranged to go town this coming monday! BOY, I'M HAPPY! hee! ;)

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Monday, April 25, 2005

♥my exams are, sort of, over.♥

my exams are sort of finally over. and i'm gg to rush home, rent lots of VCDS! and watch till i drop!!!! disc after disc..shows after shows! wahah!!~ but i'm gg to miss mokie miumiu dada like crazy. i'll have to wait till this friday, which is another 4 days' time before i can see him again! his exams are not gg to end yet. if only he's free now too! :( sindy dear too! and fanny just had her first paper today! hope everything will be a ncie warm breeze for them! aite, mommy misses me! taa!
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Sunday, April 24, 2005

♥the saturday in hostel.♥

it's yet another ordinary day in hall today. sleep, study, eat, study, eat, rest, study. the same old routine of mugging and munching. i pretended to study at canteen a with mokie today. very restless.. was listening to 93.3 and my GOODNESS!
i miss singing!!
and i miss performing so much. going around, meeting new people, etc.
WHERE'S MY LIFE?! give me back the life where i face challenges and excitment everyday. even if the adrenaline will shorten my lifespan, it's better than meditating to my books and PC screen day to day. phew, i'm just a person with big dreams, and yet so little energy. how am i going to reach where i wanna be in the end?
i am such a petty person. sigh. sometimes, i think if he's the one for me. should one start considering whether he is the one suitable for you to marry before dating him? hahaha.. if so, isn't it very tiring? very taxing to keep assessing your man? i won't wanna be judged too. neither will he like being assessed i guess.
should we all be very generous with our givings? and not ask what he can give? sometimes i think i'm still very childish. who am i to tell myself how others should treat me when i myself doubt that i can be a good companion? isn't it a shame?
today, i thought about the past again. it serves as a good practice because it tells me when to reassess myself before i judge others. my selfish personality, the little space in my heart is too tiny to room things that a big heart can accept. when i see people i dislike (or not so really like), i ask myself. what i have done? what have a done that i deserve the best from everybody els?
when you love someone, you've gotta set him free.
if he comes back in kind, i'll know he's mine.
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Saturday, April 23, 2005

♥a wonderous day @ home♥

today has been a wonderous day! i just came back from home. and had a marvellous dinner with my parents.everything has been perfect today! :)

i really miss dad and mom!

and i can tell that they really missed me as well! it feels really good to have my family with me. today i finally saw dad after not being able to catch him at home. he's always either working or sleeping. and i felt great just to see him today. mom too! she hugged me today. and it felt like i'm the luckiest child on earth. i love them.
mom and i on xmas
i read my old diaries at home yesterday night. (yea, i've been writing since i was in primary 6) and i really felt very affectionate. partly because all those old feeling just came back all at the same time. i'm really ashamed of some of the things i've done in the past. they are nothing that i can be proud of. these years have really been a learning experience for me. seeing more people. both good and fucky ones.. i mean real goddamn fucky beings. i'm glad i've survived it all, although i feel like shit at times thinking about silly things i've done in the past that have, sort of changed me. yea, i believe i've changed quite alot. not that innocent, naive girl anymore. well, perhaps still quite naive sometimes. but at least, those bad times taught me to be tougher and smarter. *shrugs*
sometimes, i wish that i can go back to the past again... and i believe most people have had regrets in their lives too. although those are all bygones, there are alot of people whom i'm really grateful of. people who stood by me in spite of all odds. people who gave me a pat and supported me in every way when i was in trouble. people who gave me that 'ommphh' when i was lost.

sometimes, ignorance is bliss isn't it?

oh yes!! i just watched "Brotherhood". it's a good korean warflick. oh did i say good? i meant marvelloustastic!
i give it 5 stars! * * * * *

i'm hopelessly addicted to won bin!
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Thursday, April 21, 2005

♥miumiu in mokie's roomie..♥

here we are, mugging again. we're always mugging. sigh.. chemistry tomorrow. luckily it's chemistry, not some shitass feesicks again. *phfeww* today, mokie said that i put on weight! SOB.. i can feel that i had became chubbier too. *boing boing*
however, mokie bought me nice gummy sweets for me to munch on and as an encouragement to work harder for the coming papers! (arww... how sweeeeeet) hehe. i'm going back home tomorrow. then
I WON'T BE ABLE TO SEE MOKIE FOR LONG!!!!
i'm gonna miss him atrociously!
mokie is such a darling! he is the only person who'd let me draw and vandalise his arm, the only person who would do stupid and wild things with me. muahaha.. he's da bestest.!! i want exams to end badly! i want to go out with my fanny dear, sindy dear, dorothy dear, blandina dear, erica dear and mokie miumiu dada! *lalalalalalalalala*
bear with it and the rainbow will cummmmmm~~~ *arhhh.. enlightence~~*
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

♥my lousiest paper ever!♥

i just had the lousiest paper in my entire mugging life! i can only do like 10% of the paper i guess~ :""( my goodness. i am such a lousy pig. *sobs* mokie tried to encourage me after the paper though. (not much of a help too) misery misery. guess i'll have to take this subject again next semester. arggh!!!
exams are finally halfway through. i can't wait for exams to be over. where i'll be able to go shopping (muahaha), ktv and tanning with my dear sindy! hehe.. and go gai gai and devour good food with miumiumokie! *hugs*
the first thing i'd wanna do is to get a good job and save and scrimp. i wanna go overseas with mokie! my mommy don't allow me to. i'm so miserable. sigh.. i'm going crazy soon with all the exams coming like that!
I HATE SCHOOL!!!
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