Friday, October 28, 2005

♥most selfish person♥

i must be the most selfish person on earth.
dada is ill and i actually left him at boon lay
and asked him to take train back home on his own!
i have to admit i'm feeling very sian all day.
got no classes today and i went to school just that i can take a look at him.
i started out fine.
sigh. i don't know..
i think i'm just too clingly.
and i'll resort to any means to try to get things to work out my way.
i hate myself for this.
just now he called me and he said he's very upset that i can actually be so selfish sometimes.
when i have headaches or whatever so,
he would come home with me and even stay over to take good care of me.
and to think that i won't even put my big fat ego down to accompany him
for the short trip home.
he even said that its time that i should reflect upon myself.
i'm always so full of myself.
thinking that he should give in to me all the time.
i just miss having him around.
and i thought by doing all that i might be able to change his decision of going home.
feel so drained and empty.
it must have been the exams and all.
he looks just fine from the outside.
chirpy and all when talking to his friends.
but he said he's just trying to put up a front to make me feel happier.

i am just so so childish and plain silly.
i really don't spare a thought for the people around me?

i think i enjoy self pity very much.
i just love to make other people feel terrible, and tell myself i feel terrible too.
what is going to happen to me and whoever who will be with me if this goes on?

i'm such a stubborn and selfish person.
i think people should just stay away from me.
(look! i'm self pitying again!)
i'm such a failure. (ARGH! again!)

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Thursday, October 20, 2005

♥total muggerita♥

i'm on total mugger mode lately.
like yesterday alone, i studied alone in causeway point alone from 1pm to around 5 plus.
and from 5 plus to 8 plus with my miu.
took a break and then another 2 hours at night. hahaha..
can't believe i can be such a hardcore mugger.

miu came over to my place yesterday night.
its like half his home already. haha..
i forced him to do a mask because i wanted to see his face behind the mask.
and true enough. he looked rather comical. haha. damm cute. lol!
check out those huge pink lips. hahaha!
looks yummier than strawberry agar agar! :p

i've been trying out thise loreal's white perfect deep whitening mask.
one of my girlfriend recommended it to me, she said its good!
i tried. and i must say i really like it! :D
can feel the radiance bursting out of my skin after using it. hahaha..
ok, not so kua zhang lah.
but it feels good.
and i think if i use it long term,
it'll be able to get rid of the pimple scars left from the previous outbreak. :(

today brought my camera out because i thought i would be meeting fanny for a study session,
sigh. but i attended my last tutorial and fanny think its a bit too late already.
she had something else on at night. so sad. so i just anyhow snapped snapped. hehehe..
watched "deuce bigalow" again.
still as funny as the first time! hahaha..
you guys should seriously go catch that show. :p

here's my lecture kakis
from left sey long, vincent and cutie sok ser! hee. still got others lah.
but they weren't around then.

hur hur... nothing else better to do.

this second guy from the left got the same phone as me!
first time i see someone holding this same model as me!!!
hahaha.. really very bo liao.

our favourite spastic pose!
notice that we're wearing the same thing as yesterday night. hahaha!!!
bcos miu forgot to bring an extra tee.
and i think the sweater looks good on me.
it was cold last night so i wear a sweater to bed.
and it was cold this morning.
so i didn't wanna take it off. lol.
dirty dirty miumius~
wehehehe...

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Sunday, October 16, 2005

♥sunday♥

i hope the sky over every soccer field in singapore floods every sunday.
and saturday.

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♥studying is fucking disgusting♥

ahh.. i'm in no mood to mug. i miss shaowei.
feel stupidER and stupidER as i look through my notes and tutorials!
fucking frustrated with myself so i decided to stop lookin through them!

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!!!!

:(

he's not around. stupid weekend.
if only its weekdays and i'm in school.
at least i can see more human beans.
ahhhh... i'm bored stiff.
everyone's studying.. and i'm not. la la la la la..
i like this new blogskin i got.
its exactly like how i feel now.
jaded and feeling sick of everything.

melvyn msged me yesterday.
he said he and his group of friends were at sembawang park,
having an overnight fishing gathering.
he asked me to join them but i declined.
it has been ages since i seen levi, lionel, yuefen etc and of course melvyn too.
they're really nice people. hope the exams will soon be over.
and i should perhaps go meet up with them soon. :)
shaowei should be having his usual soccer game now.
except that today's game is being arranged to be right smack in the middle of the day.
yea yea. sunday is supposed to be his soccer day with his mates.
so sunday is supposed to be my lonely day now.
grr. i hate boys.

i miss fun. gonna meet up with old friends really soon after exams!
WOOSH!

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♥t i r e d♥

went granny's house to pay her a visit today.
but really kinda bored there today.
slept and studied half my day away there.
and shaowei din come along this time because he had to do his projects at bernard's hse.
sigh.
so sad without him. haha..
here are some pictures taken in the last few days.
met up with cheewei day before yesterday for a casual dinner and movie.
caught "deuce bigalow" together in the theatre.
fucking funny. hahaha. it really feels great catching up with a good old friend once in a while
:)

its saturday night.
and i still got no plans for tomorrow.
is it going to be study and rest at home again.
damm shit.
i just found lobangs for holiday short term jobs again. haha..
damm happy. money money money.~~
lol.

here's goody-two-shoes mr nice, mr lee cheewei.
if u're single and need a good man, and takes a fancy for him.
u can email your resumes in. haha..

we're in the total goofing around mood after that slapstic "bigalow" flick. hahaa...

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Wednesday, October 12, 2005

♥presentation sucks.♥

so here's the outfit i mentioned. hee.
i only slept for 2.5 hours last night! BOO!
spent 3 hrs doing the presentation for the 8.30am class this morning.
so damm waste time lor.
and tomorrow i still GOT QUIZ! A R G H . . .
stress ah stress ah...

:"~(

but like what sweetiepie said!

"don't give up when you still have something to give. nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying. "

chooooooooonnnnnnnggggg AHHHHH!!!!

but for now, maybe taking a short nap is the best solution.

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Tuesday, October 11, 2005

♥sigh. flunked my test again.♥

i flunked my soil test again today. i'm so disappointed with myself.
because i studied for few days to prepare myself for the test.
very sad and angry with myself when i realised that i did all crap work in the test.
s i g h .

i must work harder for the final exam to earn back what i've lost! GRR!

there's a presentation for me tomorrow morning.
another test day after tomorrow.
3 tests next week.
exams starting 2 weeks later.

com'on. kill me man.

*bangs head*

i feel so drained now. especially when i realised that all those mugging all leads to
lousy results.. no drive and motivation to move on at all..

i burst out crying just now when revising for my quiz on thursday.
i think no varsity student will study until they cry in the school canteen man.
blardy shit. i'm such a slow and dumb girl.
A R G H !
luckily miu was there. he kept me sane. at least there's still him to explain stuff for me.
he is one smartie, i tell you.
and his girlfriend a dumbo.. shame on me.
but it kinds of balance out like this mah hoh. hahaha...
he's popping by tomorrow to coach me for the coming quiz.
its always last minute. i hate it.

engineers are really miserable people.
SO HARD TO STUDY LOH!
*sweat*

BUT!!!! bought a cutie ring today! hee..
i know it looks kiddish.
but it really brightened my day so so much.
bought a new denim jumpsuit too. not really jumpsuit lah..
i'll wear it tomorrow! can check it out in my style diary. hee.
ok, i go bathe and do presentation and then mug already.

sigh. a day in the life of a miserable engineering student.
please don't send your daughters to engineering courses in future yea.
*sobs*

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Sunday, October 09, 2005

♥freaking bored sunday.♥

i studied for like 5 minutes today.
hahaha.. niccee right.
went to cut my hair today! wahaha.
i know i've been ranting that i wanna keep my hair long. but i was tooooo bored this afternoon.

no choice.

new hair! yippee! feel like a boy now. hahaha..

like candy lo's!! i like i like!

hahaha.. photowhore.

hee.. here comes more interesting ones. doing a mask at night. hopefully it'll salvage my pimply face.

*sobs*

goodnight kids.

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♥sian♥

S I A N .

bickered with mok shaowei just now. freaking hell. sigh.
hate it hate it hate it.
i think i'm glue. sticky sticky glue! *grump*
grow up puhleese peggy! GRRR!

i think nobody is as sticky as me.
but i just feel like seeing him everyday.
p o s s e s s i v e ?

(i don't think so leh.)

wth.

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Friday, October 07, 2005

♥t.g.i.f♥

ITS FRIDAY!!!! yay~ yippee~

i had a long day in school today. yesterday din get to see dada for very long. :(
only a little while when he was leaving my house for school.
and today only got to see him over breakfast. poor miu.
i miss him very much.

"hi mokie, if you're reading this now, i wanna announce shamelessly that i missie you alot!"
you better accompany me for darrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrnnnn long tomorrow,
if not i'm going to strangle you.
i'm gonna kill you.
you know downright!

hehe.. *chuck chuck*

he had to stay in school until about 9 plus 10pm to do his project.
poor chap. in school from 1030 in the morning to 1030pm at night!
he actually had a JC class gathering in the evening, but he had to give it a miss!
i think he must be feeling very disappointed and sian abt his stupid schoolwork.

ABOLISH SCHOOLS!!!! *groow*
lol.

i miss my boyfriend! ARGH!!!

met up with gladys in the morning to do our effective comm assg. (-_-")
damm damm damm sian to tabao this subject lah. ultimate already.
grr. and i haven't been attending classes regularly this semester.
and i won't be surprised if i tabao it again this time. sigh.
i hate effective comm.

less than one month to final exams!
i must work hard! on probation this semester already.
and mom doesn't know. (shit)
if i get kicked out or smtg, she's going bonkers!

just now received a call from my uncle.
haha.. my aunt-in-law's niece needs help with her sec2 art assignments.
haha.. CHEY. art.. no kick.
and my hands were itchy when drawing was mentioned,
so i did her assignments for her (AS REQUESTED, *ahem*)
but seriously, this is not you should do for your kid man.
*shakes head*
not right not right. haha..
anyway, here is my sec.2 standard art-pieces.

(ok, actually my standard is only until sec2. so just nice. lol..)
ok, you can't really see the shading bcos its kinda light.
because i keep making mistakes mah~ haha.. so must keep it light.
wehehe...~

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♥T.G.I.F!!♥

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Thursday, October 06, 2005

♥gathering part II yay!!~♥

Helped my school's photography society with some photos today. haha..
i look so fake. gees. nvm. more interesting photos are all behind. heheheh..

-ARMPIT!!!. omigod. so ugly loh~

BUT AFTER A FEW TOUCHES BY THE GREAT ME,
wahaha.. nice~

I had another mini gathering with fanny dear this afternoon. and michelle came along!!
hee. so fun. although we only had lunch together at JP foodcourt,
we took tonnes of dumb photos together.
attracted alot of unwanted attention in the food court. so diulian loh.. haha..