
thank you for protecting and loving me in such a self-centered way.
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thanks jawslyn for spending the night with me.
it would have been an even worse birthday without you.
at least i am happy with you, jawslyn. :*)
we talk, we curse, we drink, we puke, we KO together.
looking forward to more.
:)
i feel like disappearing.
i need a sunrise too.
i don't want anymore sunsets.
seriously, no one really gives a shit about me.
don't pretend to lah.
you're probably more interested in saving your own backside.
but well, except for mom of course.
she is the one who is with me always.
nothing beats kinship. period.
if you ask me,
i'd really wanna watch a long weepy soppy drama now
to cry my lungs out.
i'd really wanna grab my guitar now.
to strum and scream my favourite song.
i'd really wanna get drunk.
to forget about every damn thing.
i'd really wanna hug my mother
to kiss her and tell her how much i love her.
i'm just gonna do what my heart tells me to.
i want to study hard!
i didn't expect myself to spend so much time on this blog entry.
but it is really therapeutic to write like that.
birthday's over.
the twenty second year of my life is going to be all about myself.
myself myself myself.
the twenty second year of my life is dedicated to making myself happy.
i am so pissed at myself feeling sad for so long.
it ends today.